Spinning brain...

I flip between happy and sad so quickly right now, it's unreal. I'm frustrated because I want so badly to see friends and whatnot, yet the idea of being out in a group scares me. I think it's just too much. I don't want people to ask me, "How are you doing?" in that sad voice. I don't want to have to explain anymore that no, I'm not pregnant anymore. Just like that. 3 weeks ago I was heading off right now to have my first ultrasound. I was so excited! How does it go so quickly? Why was this stolen from me? Who the fuck did I piss off?